I believe that in our darkest moments we can get closest to our souls. I did.
Only 9 months ago, I was in a dire, desperate situation. Violently ill and rapidly worsening over the September long weekend, I was admitted to the hospital for Emergency care. Ready for relief, I was alarmed when providers treated me for constipation and suggested it would resolve itself. After three days, I knew that I was dying. My body was shutting down, organ by organ. Everything was dark inside, and I felt helpless as my strength subsided minute by minute, without a treatment plan in sight.
In the bathroom (again), I prayed for a miracle. Calling my daughter-in-law to my side, I whispered, “Call a Doctor, NOW! I’m not going to make it unless someone takes charge. I won’t live much longer.”
Despite the severity of my situation, I was not scared. After all, this was not my first brush with death. Ten years before, I had been through colon cancer. Before that, I had been close to dying when I gave birth to my first child. Because of those experiences, I had all of my ducks in a row. If this was my time, I was as prepared as I could be.
My call for a miracle came in the form of a Doctor that my daughter-in-law found. He scheduled emergency surgery that saved my life.
Sixteen days later, I still had a big open wound, but I was allowed to go home. My surgeon emphasized how close I had been to dying, and that my positive mindset and willingness to fight were why I had healed so well. I didn’t disagree, but inside, I knew that something about this, my third near-death experience, was very different.
I believe that in our darkest moments we can get closest to our souls and that everything happens for a reason…I’m forever thankful to be here today, to look at my granddaughter Olivia’s smiling face, and to bring Global Voices of Change to life.
Make this day beautiful.
Blissful greetings from the Sunshine State
About Susan Binau
Susan is a motivational speaker, published author, and survivor of cancer and other life-threatening illnesses that changed her perspective on life.
Her mission is to inspire others through "hands-on tools," educational programs, coaching and self-help books.